Miscellaneous

I have alot to say....I just don't know where to begin. Life is always changing, and I appreciate that very much if it didnt who knows? I have learned how to be patient and not to always jump the gun and flip out! My temper has gotten worse over the years because my tolerance is so short. My personal relationships have suffered from this as well as my friendships. I've heard that I'm selfish, and careless of other people's feelings. I'm trying to work on that, and I've made some changes. My boy friend and I have been together 5 1/2 years and we have 4x kids together, we raise them together and we parent them together. Anyway we have fucked up our relationship so badly that we fought all the time, I aceept blame and I have fixed and continue to fix my part. For once he is too, and its a journey for the both of us I think more him because he never put in this much effort.





It's weird to come home and fight with him or pick on him because I was so used to it. I was used to putting him down because I resented him for taking away my happiness with him. In terms of a RELATIONSHIP goes, we laugh about it daily like wow we have wasted so much time. Don't get it twisted it's not a honeymoon stage, because those evenutally end....we are just learning and communicating with one another. I dont jump the gun and get angry like I used to and neither does he.





As for my friendships I only have a few! And those carry a special place in my heart! They too go up and down and some stay the same. And I have to work on my personal issues.