It has been a very long time since I have made the time to sit and blog. The thought would cross my mind everyday. But I had other things to do. My weeks are full of school, kids, reality t.v. and fights with my "significant other".
I love school, its very hard but I love the challenge and the my hard work does pay off. I have made friends in school FINALLY..LOL. Living in Houston has been okay. But now that I actually friends it has been much better. Isolation was hard for me, just only talking to my friends in NY by phone, text, email, twitter and Face book. Now I get to actually speak to people face to face..finally human contact! My teacher Ms. Rand is awesome. She is a great teacher and a great person.
For my Spring Break I went to NYC for 10 days. It was so different going back. I felt closed in like I couldn't breathe. Living in Houston there is so much space and air. Traffic in NY was just annoying, and the constant construction everywhere. I thought I would have time to see everyone and I did not. I was disappointed about that, and I'm sure many of my friends were to. My mom was great, she was off from work so it was perfect. Being in her house was great! It felt weird, and the many dogs did not help me adjust right away. But I eventually did. I am looking forward to my mom coming in the Summer and staying awhile. Hopefully she will consider moving to Houston.
My kids are great. They constantly surprise me everyday. Just how their minds think..its just amazing. The twins are ending the 2nd grade in June and they love school. They have many friends, and they enjoy school. Parents here in Houston are more free with their kids. Like sleep overs are the norm. Without meeting other parents they allow their children to sleep over whom evers house. That to me is so scary. I guess I still have that NY mentality. So its hard for my children to understand that they can't stay over there friends house. My youngest is finally going to start school in August, and very nice one at that. I have been home schooling him so he is on point. It hasn't been easy but he is ready and excited to be among kids his own age. He is to mature sometimes for a 4 year-old. Due to being around his older siblings all the time. My oldest will be a senior soon, and he is finding his place in the world. I told him take your time. Live a little, stop being afraid and so rigid. He is working on that slowly but surely.
My personal life could be better. But it is what it is. I don't have time to focus on my "love life". It is not that important to me at this time in my life. I guess because I have been the only one giving a SHIT all these years and he has been just stagnated. So now that I have school and I finish in November of this year that is my first priority. It's my time to not give a fuck, and just be the selfish one. I have not been that person in a very long time. Sometimes good guys don't always WIN. And I am okay with that, this journey that I am on is for me and my family. I will pass by who ever I need to pass by! At my age, and all the experience I have had, I always end up good. I survive, I always come out on top. My friends ask me all the time, "what are you going to do"? And my response is " keep moving, finish school, and just keep moving"!
